Sorry for kind of disappearing. I had a rough time for a stretch there (still kind of am, but it’s getting better, so let’s go with that).
I fell down a few stairs this morning, and seem to have bruised my tailbone. The midwife said that this is the “best” time of pregnancy to do that, and I haven’t experienced any symptoms that suggest an issue with the pregnancy, so that’s cool. Driving (and any extended sitting, really) is pretty excruciating, though. Hopefully that heals soon. I really do wish that the on-call midwife hadn’t acted like I was being silly by having a panic attack, though, especially since I have notes about the fact that I experience panic attacks in my chart. I explained how the amygdala works, and that seemed to get a more helpful response from her, but it was incredibly dismissive and unprofessional.
The news from Ferguson is incredibly disturbing, but not at all shocking. My sister lives in Ferguson, and works closely with the police of a nearby city. She was pretty racist before going there, but way more racist after, especially against black people. Her husband is participating in the white people’s response to useful, informative hashtags surrounding the murder and subsequent police assaults. It’s called #thisismyferguson, and basically shows white people going out to dinner. So useful and informative and not at all demeaning towards the people affected by anti-black racism in their city.